Thursday, June 12, 2014

April

I'm writing about how I spent the 30 days of April just now because I became extra busy last month and doing so slipped my mind. These days, I've been absorbing and learning a lot of things I'm afraid I might be experiencing what they call information overload.

April Fools' Day was spent telling my teammates that I just submitted my resignation letter and that it was irrevocable. A week before, I took a leave and thought things through really hard since I told myself I should stay in one company for at least two years before I hit 30. I thought it would be with DWH, but I guess I had to move on since there was a greener pasture (I hope) waiting for me. I deliberated hard, because I believe I gained a lot of friends in the company and it would be a pain to leave them though on the bright side, I hoped that whatever bond we have had will stay the same even though I leave. I consider myself lucky to have had the opportunity to travel with some of them.

Because I would be leaving Makati soon, I called up a friend who works in Buendia one day and asked him if he would like to have dinner with me. I'm always grateful to have him as a friend. He's one of the very few who can tell me things I NEED to hear. I remember back in highschool, he told me straight to my face that I was insulting and that I hurt his feelings, right after I said stupid things meant as a joke but which he took as an insult. At that time, I decided to keep him as a friend after I apologized profusely, since I discovered that he may well be the friend I need who has the courage to speak out his mind. I think losing him in 4th year highschool (he transferred to another school) contributed to my sorrows which in turn made me a different person in college.

Anyway, we did meet up, as expected of him. We dined at Corner Tree Café along Buendia. The resto serves vegetarian food and menu prices are quite steep but the food is lovely. I had koftas (meatballs in tomato sauce over couscous) which has a clean taste, pretty much like tofu. We talked about a lot of things, like how I was about to resign, his struggles in courting a girl, what we've been doing all these years... It was as if we just met the day before. Nothing changed except he's now more focused to work hard for his future, something I'm very happy to see. After dinner, we took a very long walk from Buendia to the LRT station. I didn't mind since I'm made for walking, and neither did he since he walks from his office to the LRT most days anyway.

Another thing I like about him is that he really cares for me. One time I sent him an SMS and he called me up, thinking I was upset about something and that maybe I needed someone to talk to. We ended up laughing about it because I was just in my emo moments then and I just felt like messaging him. We may not have many similarities but having him as a friend counts as one of life's wonderful blessings.

One highlight for this month is that I got to join a quiz bee contest again after so many years. Bonus includes learning more about responsible tourism and winning cool prizes. I am also thankful to be part of my sisters' movie date with their college friend whom I met during one of their friends' wedding last year. The last time I went out to watch a movie with my sisters was last year when I won free tickets to The Wolverine. A date with another highschool friend in the bowling alley also made my month since we hardly see each other these days, with both of us being extra busy in our respective lives. I love how she is able to use her creativity in her new business venture now when in previous years she seemed like a lost kid to me.

For mom's birthday, we had dinner at Ajisen Ramen which is near Banawe in QC. An aunt had been there and recommended it. Unfortunately I think my standards have levelled up a great deal so I wasn't impressed at all with the food there. I had a bowl of spicy tantanmen ramen and was disappointed when they couldn't give me that much needed extra sesame oil. My sister had good sense to order their cold noodles which, for me, was something I should have ordered since it is very summer-y.

One lonely Sunday, I went to church alone. For unknown reasons, overwhelming sadness enveloped me and before I knew it, tears uncontrollably ran down my cheeks and I wanted the flow to stop but all I could do was cry even more. Inside a jam-packed church I felt so alone and so friendless (though I know I shouldn't think that). And then I realized that maybe there are even more lonelier and friendless souls out there in this big big world made small by technology AND compartmentalized by the same technology that people no longer find joy in the company with other people save for pics to be uploaded to Facebook or Instagram... JUST TO BE SEEN by others. That moment I told myself to be strong enough to walk away from people who doesn't value me nor the "bond" that we share, and yet to still keep an open heart as one can never know when a true friend will enter one's life.

A few days before my last day, I also realized how happy I was to have become friends with a guy in the office. It's rare that I talk about unusual things to someone of the opposite sex but this guy is open-minded so I didn't have any reservations whenever we chat about anything under the sun. In that respect, he reminds me of a college friend with whom I often played table tennis. This male office friend is also one of the most generous ones I've got as he agrees to download movies for me. It helps that we have almost the same taste. I certainly missed chatting with him.

On my last day, I slept over at an office friend's condominium unit. She was new in the office and according to her, I was one of the first ones to talk to her. She was very quiet so I was surprised when she invited me over. I felt honored to be her guest. I cooked spaghetti for her and I was glad she liked it although we didn't have that much ingredients and I had to make do with what was available. After dinner, we chatted for a long time before we were able to sleep at around midnight. The following day, we bonded at the sauna. (Guess what? We just came back from Baguio earlier this week so watch out for my posts on our Baguio trip.)

One day in violin class, my teacher suddenly asked me if I have a boyfriend and I answered in the negative. (Inside my mind, I was shouting curses and feeling self-pity at the same time. LOL) And then he told me, as if making a prophecy, that I will certainly have a boyfriend before the year ends. I stared at him, me the usually gullible one, turned into an instant unbeliever. He probably sensed my disbelief so he added, "Just look at you, you're talented, and smart, and pretty! It's unbelievable that you still don't have a significant other!" I wanted to tell him I couldn't believe it either but oh well, I might end up broken again so I didn't say anything and just resumed playing the violin.

And then I met new people. Ultra cool people, some of which are younger than me, but really really cool and talented people. They brought back the sense of wonder I think I lost while being a corporate slave in Makati.

Before the month ended, I finally sold my Lenovo laptop. I had to due to storage problems. :'(

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